...wondering when i will ever feel like im normal and be content with the way i think and who i am ...when will i ever feel like ive found my place in the puzzle? sad lil creature wondering alone pretending like i know who i am but im guessing as i go trying on shoes pair by pair to see which one FITS ME, why am i stuck in this rut? everyone keeps moving forward while i stay seated in the back thinking to myself how do i get out of here?...

...i want someone to chase me i dont want to be left behind and forgoten or replaced. thank you ****** *. for breaking me and ruining me ever having a chance to open up to another guy , thank you for choosing drugs over me and lying straight to my face about shit you were doing....i hope your happy alone...

...for a split second you knew how i felt we were at the same place in life and know why i was the way i was and acting the way i was, you knew how i felt and how you just ignored what i was going through you just ignored it, i needed you the most at that moment and you just ignored it, i hope your drugs keep you warm at nght and keep you company when your all alone, i hate your gutts for walking away from me and making me feel like i did something wrong, for using me filling my head with lies,but as much as i hate you i will always love you,and have a place in my heart for you and will always miss everything about you, they way you kissed me ,held me,way you smell,the way you looked at me, i will always love you but wanted you to know that...

... no matter how long its been i can never seem to stop thinking about you or get over you, why cant i just forget...





... holiday season sux once again i wish a guy would make it better .. even if he fakes it just to make the holidays better cuz ive spent every single one alone. :/